It was 1986 in Santa Barbara and I was in a seminar called “Mastery in Wealth.” There were about 80 participants meeting in a plush hotel for 6 weeks. The third week people were standing up and sharing miracles around their income in some form or another. In a rare act of courage (for me at that time in my life) I stood up and said,
“I have 86 cents in my pocket and I will have no more income for another 10 days.”
And I sat down.
Silence fell on the room. One woman finally stood up and said, “See me at the break.” Everyone moved on as if I had not spoken. I am sure there were others in the room who were not having money miracles, but the New Age movement was good at shaming those who were not “getting it.” At least that was my perception.
I talked to the woman at the break and she was selling herbal products for a multi-level marketing company and invited me to be in her down line. I didn’t have much to lose.
I never really made any money doing that but I got involved with some people who were having fun and looking to deepen their spiritual lives. That was the bonus.
It took me awhile to realize the courage I found to stand up in that group was simply me listening to my intuition, and acting before I had the chance to second guess myself.
It also took a lot of courage to keep going in my life living in poverty in such an opulent city.
I was raised to believe I was meant to be poor. Even after I later understood that, it took me more years of inner work and determination to see how abundant my life actually is!
I am still not a financially wealthy person, and I am a happy contributing member of my community in this little mountain town where I choose to live.
With belief in yourself, and the desire to change your circumstances you can achieve many great things, including being sad when you’re sad, and joyful when you are joyful!
The power of acceptance (not resignation) and of the willingness and ability to devote time to your own healing will change you and your life.
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